NEW YEARS

I haven't written on here because I haven't been exercising.  It's been so freezing that I stopped, which is a terrible excuse, but I don't have a treadmill and walking during the day was just as cold as night time.  Once I get a treadmill or the weather warms up, I will be exercising again.  In the meantime, I will try eating better.  One way I believe to start is drinking water instead of soda.  Another way is to eat fruit and salad during the day.  I really want to be healthy and I've probably made this resolution every year, so instead of making a big deal out of it I will take it one day at a time and see where it goes.

Step Up

So, I went for my walk last night in the freezing cold with my boyfriend.  Only did one lap, but we decided to try running the last of the way home.  I actually ran!  What was more suprising is he told me I had good form.  Whaaaaa?  The girl who got made fun of in elementary school for being 'twinkle toes' and middle school for running crooked has good form now?  Who would have thought that?  I was pretty excited to hear I had good form.  Must be the shoes. I was also surprised at the fact that I was under-winded.  I thought I'd be huffing and puffing my way in the door, with my saliva hitting the ground and my body dying to lay down BUT I WASNT.  Light huffing, puffing and I actually felt great.  Crazy.  Maybe I AM fit to be a runner after all.  We'll see. :)

Hotter Than Hell

Went for a walk tonight finally.  Brought my new shoes along.  They worked nice, although my feet feel warmer than normal.  Sweating and drank water today.  Getting back on track.  I've been doing it pretty much by myself lately, which sucks.  My support system is gone, so I guess I'll just have to do it alone until she gets back into it with me.

Ate too much yesterday and today.  PMS kills my motivation so much.  It's like a drug addiction you can't get rid of.  I'm not 'taking' PMS but it sure does sneak up on me every month. 

Ready for a new day and some cooler weather.  Maybe I should move to the country where nobody lives and the snow never stops. 

BAD

Bad week.  Dehydration made me lose too much weight too fast.  Didn't catch it until this week when I had only gone twice and lost more weight than last week.  So, drink water more. Check. 

Got my yoga dvd today and failed hard on the first exercise.  I need to stretch daily before I can get into that. 

Overall had an uneventful exercise week.  Could only walk 2/7 days because of the rain. 

Good news though!  My boyfriend bought me brand new walking shoes.  (So expensive though)
They feel wonderful.  They are a new kind of Nikes and I guess there is a device in the shoe, if I register, I can keep track of how many calories I burn while wearing the shoes.  Isn't that awesome?

Day Before Thanksgiving

It's the day before Thanksgiving, which means it's the start of holiday dinners and eating sweets and over-stuffing your belly while surrounding yourself with family and friends.  This year is going to be different for me.  My grandpa won't be here again this year, my diet has changed to vegan and my family won't see me this Thanksgiving because of work schedules.  You might say that this year would be stressful, but I see the positive in it.  I've been walking for a week and a day.  This is my second week and I've lost 3lbs already (and I'm PMSing)!  That's impressive and it makes me proud to say that I actually worked for it.  There have been times where I would diet and not eat and lose weight but I gained it all back.  That's not work at all.

I was looking up what I could buy with my 100 bucks I won.  I wanted to get some vegan make-up, new walking shoes and a yoga dvd but I quickly found out that most of my money would be spent on 1 thing.  Major bummer.  Maybe I'll add it to my Christmas list. >;-P

Anyway, to update on my walking.  I did 3 1/2 hours last week.  Got tied up Monday and Tuesday but went for 30 minutes tonight.  I am PMSing and have been busy and really tired, but atleast I did a half hour tonight instead of nothing.  I need to do 4 1/2 hours for the rest of the week.  I want my goal to be 5 hours of exercise every week.  I already took my two days off Monday and Tuesday so I cannot slack this week.  I have noticed that my body is starting to crave it.  So that's good.  It's just walking, but it's more than what I've been doing.  I think that I may not weigh myself until I've done it for a month.  If I continue to weigh myself and I gain a pound or two, I'll probably get discouraged and stop.  I'm afraid of falling off the wagon if I get too excited that I lost 3lbs and then start eating all kinds of sweets which is what I did the night I found out I lost a pound.  I ate three crappy meals.  I think it was pancakes for breakfast, mac n cheese for lunch and then taco bell for dinner.  Terrible, terrible food choices.

I have an idea about the holidays.  If I only eat the holiday meal and not over-stuff myself and eat whatever I want within moderation, I can work extra hard those weeks in exercise.  No use in stressing out over it.  It's just food.  If I stress about it, that adds extra weight.  Noooo thank you!

To make a long story short:
The holidays will not beat me.  The food will not beat me.  The weight will not beat me.  Stress will not beat me!

Goal 1 Reached!

I LOST A POUND I LOST A POUND!!!!!

I walked a total of 3 and a half hours this week which isn't much but it's a start.  I did 30 minutes on some days and an hour on the days I missed. Been eating less due to more exercise and noticing that I have more energy during the rest of the day and I feel less stressed.  This is awesome.  So proud of my momma too! She's been walking with me and keeping at it with me.  She won't be able to bump up to an hour at a time with me yet because of her accident she had recently, but she will when she's able. :)

AHHHHHHHH. I'm so proud of myself.  Once I get used to walking I think I might start running...*cringe*

Wish me luck for this week! I need to get to 5 hours this week. :)

Day Deux

Second day of walking accomplished!  My whole body feels damp and sticky, but in a good way...

Ahem...so.  30 minutes of exercise plus a personal size pizza from Macaroni Grill with veggies and no cheese = win.  Water all day.  Next day is on the list.  Maybe I will have Moe's.  I love me some Moe's.

Can't wait til this walking starts showing results.  I am finally ready to have a better body and actually work for it. 

Monday, Bloody Monday

Late start to the day.  Woke up around noon and lazied around on the couch with my honey.  Grabbed some lunch and came home after he picked up his guitar.  I was thinking on the couch how I wished I had a bed to sleep on.  I was at my parents this weekend and I was sleeping in my old bed.  I never realized how much sleep I'm losing from going to bed on a stupid couch. 

Had some boom-boom before he left for work and then went for a walk with my mom on the phone and a water bottle in the other hand.  I actually sweat!  It's a miracle! It was supposed to be 20 minutes but ended up being about 30 from stopping to tie my shoes and such.  First day down, the rest of my life to go.  :)

Food Diary

     Sickness has taken a hold on me.  It's been about three days and I'm a bit fed up, to be quite frank.  Not to be a stick in the mud of course.  The positive side to this sickness is that I got it from my significant other.  How could I resist his sweet attempts to kiss me?  I cannot ignore his sickness, so I embraced it.  All you need is love, no?  The worst part of being under the weather is the terrible sore throat that is most commonly known as the devil.  This cold has been friendly, thank goodness. 

    Being bed-ridden has taken a toll on my ticking gears in my head.  All I've been wanting to do is get up and do something.  Anything!  I had plans to clean our bedroom out and go crazy decorating it.  I ended up getting sick halfway through so it's just sitting idly while I stare at the ceiling, sniffing my snot continuously into my nostrils.  I fortunately was able to muster enough strength to get a few more things out on the patio and put the trash out on the curb for tomorrow.  Between cleaning and being rat pack kind of people, our trash pile was three feet tall and spanned for about eight feet.  Our neighbors must think we have four families living here!

     I have been eating like a pig with a bottomless stomach.  I know it's half hunger and half stress.  If I could, I'd add another half and say it's depression or pure boredom.  I have this sick obsession with the taste of food.  I crave certain foods out of nowhere.  Most of the time it's junk!  I am a fat bitch and I'm tired of it!

     So, I called my mommy.  I gave her an idea to try with me.  I asked her to do a 'Lifestyle Change Diet'.  She of course asked me what I was talking about.  I told her I wanted to lose weight and change my lifestyle.  Exercise!  We agreed to wake up every morning at 7am and go for a fast-paced twenty-minute walk together.  She will call me or I will call her at 7am and that is where our journey will start.  She's my best friend and what is the best way for me to be motivated?  If I have my best girl by my side.  We live two hours from each other, so she will have to be by my side via phone call.  That'll do.

     I made this blog for this purpose.  To become a healthy, skinny bitch.  I will record my days, my weight, and the food I eat.  Be warned, I have a foul mouth and a temper.  I may not be happy for the weeks to come.  I am positive that this will be a good thing.  I am ready to kick this terrible habit of being a fat American.  I think I will become a European.

Food Diary
Breakfast: Two Chocolate Chip Waffles with Silk
Lunch: Split-pea Soup with Crackers and Water
Dinner: Boca Chicken Sandwich with half of leftover burrito
Dessert: A few spoonfuls of So Delicious Ice Cream

     I feel like I ate a lot today.  I had the waffles but didn't finish them all so I saved them in the refridgerator for later and ended up having soup an hour later which made me feel really full.  Had the chicken sandwich and burrito within thirty minutes of each other so it felt like I ate two meals and then I grabbed some icecream but only had a few spoonfuls before putting it away.  I need to set a time limit or something.  I need to find my hunger button.  When is it time to eat and when is it time to stop?  This country has such a skewed perception of portions that I'm not sure what's correct anymore.  I hope exercising will reduce my hunger.

     I can't wait to walk tomorrow.  Being cooped up in the house can get boring.  I should get some rest tonight.  Not used to waking up 'early'.  Wish me luck, because I'm going to be doing this every day for as long as my legs will take me.  Peace, Love & Walk!

Fat Bitch No More

My quest to become healthy has arisen from the depths of my dusty, untouched soul. So long has this 'exercise' haunted my dreams.  No more will it dwell in the unconscience of my mind.  I will rise from the earth and in turn, walk on it with my head faced toward the sky and my spirit lifted.  I will be one with the sidewalk.  The wind will burn the passage that is my throat until it reaches my lungs.  I will gather warm saliva in my mouth as it sloshes against my teeth and tongue.  When I cease to move forward, my task is complete. Days of my life are added on as I scrape away thirty mere minutes of each day to better my body, mind and soul. Join me in this crucial mission to save humanity.  Walk 'til you can no longer.  Fight obesity in this country.  Eat like a frenchman (or woman).  Be no more fat bitch.  Become skinny bitch.  Peace, Love & Walk.